This is Not About Me by Janice Galloway

One of Britain's greatest contemporary writers brings to life in luminous prose her Ayrshire childhood in the fifties and sixties.In the first volume of her memoirs, Janice Galloway brings all the brilliance of her prize-winning fiction to bear on her own memories and vividly describes how a retiring child became an outspoken artist.When her mother left her alcoholic father and set up home in a tiny attic room above a doctor's surgery, Galloway quickly learned how to keep quiet and stay out of the way. Her mother hadn't expected or wanted another child and Galloway wasn't allowed to forget that she was a burden. Her much older sister Cora, with her steady stream of boyfriends, her showy fashions and erratic temperament, never failed to remind her of her insignificance.Galloway's childhood is defined by the intimate details of her environment, where every family member looms close. With startling precision she remembers scenes of domestic life: her mother's weekly round of washing, the sodden tweed dripping on the line; Cora putting on layers of make-up for the Ayrshire night life; learning to write - and control the often rebellious letters; the living quality of her mother's mangy old fur coat.In these cramped conditions, ignored by her elders, Galloway is a silent observer, carefully and keenly watching the people around her. As her rage grows, she begins to think for herself. Slowly, unexpectedly, she finds her voice. Out of the silent child emerges the girl who will be a writer.